Clouds Float Away. Just Live.

The Prettiest Girl

It always comes back around to ourselves.
(The greatest enemy)
The problems with myself is what holds me back.
(I shouldn’t have ever given myself any credit in the first place)
When I think about it being about me or about you, then I’m sinking.
And if I could just stop thinking in terms of what I want or what I’m supposed to be doing, then maybe I would start doing more of what I was meant to be doing.
I’m not sure if I’m supposed to know what my purpose in life is, but when it comes I only hope that my expectations are far away and my love is strong enough to bury the feeling in my gut that implies pain from the outcome of what must be attended to.

Pain is a necessity to know what was wrong and to move forward.             Take the pain and run with it. Pray that it may teach something I could have never learned on my own.
I’m not good at telling people what is wrong with their beliefs.
I am this way because I believe that everyone is entitled to live their life exactly as they believe they should.
(My opinions on you having your own opinions. Groundbreaking shit here.)

So this all being said, and taking how I am into consideration. I’m hiding from my own words and what I believe is right, but my pride says that I’ll never break and there’s only the rest of my life to get there. Why peak out early? shit like that doesn’t even make sense when I read it, but I know that is what I’m doing. This message is to everyone I have ever known, but more specifically, it’s to you in a hope that you may understand me a little better.
I love every ounce of you so much that I can’t say in fear of being misunderstood by it.
But I do. I love every tiny nuance and characteristic of you so much that it just scares me. Because I know you would too if we all could just free ourselves from our selves.
It’s shitty, but I might as well keep trying even though the pain keeps coming as I do.

I pray for more courage today. Courage to do what should have been done and what will continue to need to be done, not by my own guide. Courage to see past the emotions that get in my way of truth. Courage enough to let the wind of all carry me where it will.
Fear lives in me because of me when it does.
Moments of beauty come out when I let go of that fear, and if only I could keep it out forever, but I love to sin because sinning is my guilty pleasure to answer your question.
This has been a Rant that may or may not resonate within you, but I leave you with this small truth my eyes have taught me to see.

The prettiest girl in the room is the one who smiles the most.